Monday, July 9, 2007

photography and me.


LIVE EARTH!!!, originally uploaded by andhu.

pictures can be documentative, memories and it can be the photographer feelings. there need not be a story behind every single picture but every picture can tell you a story. the story it tells depends on the appreciators, the criticizers and the photographer him or herself.

when i see the world through the view finder its totally different from the real world. i feel pretty much self assured and happy. the world can be anything i want it to be. a pretty flower can be turned it to a piece of weed, and and ugly duckling can be made pretty as a swan . it all depends on the mood and type of world i want to see and i want you to see.

most of you people who see me taking pictures will probably laugh at me... or make cheesy comments. some of you would describe as a restless person. but honestly once i look through the view finder or look at the image forming on the LCD screen, the real world around me disappears. i see what i want to see. and i see the way i want to produce it. sometime if i am not lucky, i may get something else and not the picture i visualised and i fear that a lot. because it leaves me totally disheartened. which is the most horrible feeling i know.

i know experience counts a lot when you take pictures. but i have a fear of making the first attempt, one wrong step and my mind might change. like that night on Live Earth thats the first time i got my self a pass and covered an event. The whole thing was scary. i over came two fears. the fear of falling from the stage and the fear of taking pictures of shows infront of a huge audience. i did a pretty good job for a first timer said some of the fellow photographers who helps me to improve.

some of these good photographers who themselves are learning should recruit some of the photographers who are new to this. but the fear of them succeeding over takes their egos ( you great people their please don't get offended i am talking in general and is not targeted to anyone) . it is understandable. competition, rivalry and jealousy is a part of human nature. i suppose it is what makes us strive. it sure does make me work harder. yes i admit the great photos that makes me drool makes me jealous. because they got the opportunity and was at the place at the right time.

maybe i would eventually find my way through the maze, and get a good enough camera and take a picture that i am satisfied with. i should really learn to love my pictures and stop being a perfectionist.



2 comments:

Anonymous said...

do you know your a huge attention craver?

Aisha said...

nice Photo dho :)