my journey begins!

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I stood listening to the stabbing words that came out of her. Her vicious tongue showed me no mercy. I could not utter a single word. I stood dumbstruck while my brain screamed " I told you so". All i wanted was to please her. Please her so that for once I can feel the love I had craved for all my life.
Everything i had done for her. Things i had given up for her, none of them mattered. trying to please her I had lost myself. Unsure of my self and insecure I was lost in a strange world that she created for me. What do i want? Where do i go? How do I grab a hold of myself.
Lots of times i had tried to escape this torture i go through. But the escape I seek is a sin, a selfish choice. For death I waited but why should i give up living and leave behind no foot print of my existence? I can always start over. start building my life from scratch. Start over.
This is where my journey begins ... slowly escaping the memories of the haunting past. Aiming for a better future this is where the journey begins.